Umi Ammirah

tumblr.

2010-06-07T15:07:00.001-07:00

changed to http://spaciousstory.tumblr.com/

miserable hair-do.

2010-06-04T09:46:00.000-07:00

I hate my new hair and it's first time styling there. It gave me a biggest sheeeeat-ing & fvcking feared for a second trial.
Well, Im asking her to do A and she gave me an end product of Z. How big differences was thaaat.

Tomorrow I'll be off to Malaysia for roughly 3 days? Not gonna stay there for long.
My today's doing were rather bored. Having breakfast, miserable & unglam hairdo, shop for few clothes and start packing.

Bye people, update soon :)

:)) leading a happy life, babe. keep rolling,

2010-05-31T07:47:00.000-07:00

Hellopeople.

Thanks for everything love & friends. Hidup pun sunyi takde ko, sumpah.
Tapi apakan daya.
Had Malay O level papers. Were okay and able to do it w some difficulties. I hope i get two grade higher and I'm fine.

Went out with mum and then w S. Anw, im taking things easy and at ease. No point pecah kepale. Kalau aku tau, dari dulu hingga selama-lamanye aku benci ko.

Aku tak tercatat pape siooool, takot ah babe.
FO ah takot, buto!

....

2010-05-28T07:13:00.001-07:00

Beh asal? palabuto uh!

:))) RAWWWRAWRRAWRAAW uhuh!

2010-05-27T03:46:00.000-07:00

ALHAMDULILLAH!
Terima Kasih yang maha Adil & Pemimpin. Maaf kan hamba Mu ini jikalau anggapan hamba Mu ini salah.

Thanks Rose for making me stop the nonsense and yea, ini baru dinama kan kenyataan.
OMG, THANKS!
Hadi knew it and he said our mulut masin due to we just have a chat about him.
I can't stay still now. Thank you so mucccch!
I know someone indirectly said it doesn't effect me. True enough/
But the sense of friendship is there kcuf. I don't ask for return or reward but it's like unbearable to see someone whom i know and happy with is suffering.

Ko nak tgk kakak ko terseksa, ape ko rase? Riang ke Sedih ke Nangis airmata darah?
Bodo nye manusia.
ko nak bikin lawak dekat sarkis bukan dekat kelas atau sini ea, tolong faham. Pukitiaaang!
Ko tutop mulut sudah ea, tak payah bebual ngn aku. Aku lebih rela ko diam dari ko nyamar malaikat uh! Kasi mulut ko rehat and kurang dosa ea. Paling tidak pun kasi mulut ko tahan dari kene sepak terajang!

Okay and now about th dance.
Two words, Fvcking sheeeat!

SICK SICK SICK!

2010-05-26T05:10:00.000-07:00

I didn't went to school and have two days MC.
My head is spinning, my nose running, my throat swelling. Gosh.
& the result confirmed that i had LBP due t some reasons. WTV.

&anw, i wanna change my blog t tumblr uh, macam cool sehh. How ea?
Da bye, nie S suro aku makan ubat. Dah due hari tak makan, die da mengamok.

oh from the Above.

2010-05-24T07:09:00.000-07:00

Look in the mirror and fix myself up. Wash away those tears. Be strong and suck it up. No one else can know.
Paint on a smile and walk away. I'm okay, I should be, that's what they all see.
I really want traveling to nowhere & set myself and love free to anywhere. Holding a map and start to plan our future. It's a bit last minute but it's random as well.
Not all plan can go with the flow. Therefore, i learn that life can go by random too.
No one can destroy and make up plan to distract and abstract out life.

Just left with few more days and I know the final piece of answer.

BORED.

2010-05-24T06:51:00.000-07:00

Malay Intensive started today and continuously three days. I'm dying of boredom soon.
What i do and see are all piles of work need t be done continuously. I don't need a break but fun lesson though. TY!
Wah sian, aku boring siolz! Hidup aku boring.

Things seems unusual for me. Things getting out of control. Things behaving abnormal.
& one more thing, i miss him.

WTV F-O!

2010-05-21T07:41:00.000-07:00

I'm on the verge of crying every morning upon of seeing my text-less phone from him.
And this have been draging and worsen to every morning I eventually cried, i mean really cried, no more verging. It have been last for two days. I'm speechless and always he is my priority of whom i missed truckload. Do you know that? Do you know how much i need you? To be by my side and everywhere? You promised me to see my mathematics mark for midyear, but where are you?
I studied so hard and remember so hard to let you smiled looking at my maths result because I can't promised you more good marks for other subjects other than my math's result. Then I've moved on to pass my chemistry and all except humanities for prelim. However, where's the hell are you now?
I shared the moments with my friends instead of it should be yooou!
You lied to me, F-O! I hate you. Waiting for 6 more days? Is that gonna be different answer or the same result? You know what, i hate you. I'm terribly, demoralizing, and more of you.

I've extended dance tomorrow, I really need to be my utmost dance practice as usual and no more demoralizing. You know why? Because in my mind, i hate you!
Do i mean it? Y-E-S Y-E-S errr!
IDC, I'm simply gonna be myself. And should i said, i must be professional in this kind of thing?
And i must put aside all my privacy and problems, arse!
See you, dancers! :)

[] :

2010-05-19T04:17:00.000-07:00

Like what i post in Facebook a minute ago :
Can you scream and shout straight at my face & give a wake up call, 'UMI, focus on your dance!'

Speechless, and why is the hell my heart pumping so fast and hard? My stomach, as if, have thousand and one butterflies flying? Is there really gonna have something bad appearing in surprised? Is it a good or bad sign?
I swear I wasn't feels this worst even when i went to collect my result. Except, my sweat palm keeps sweating. But this was hell no, i just felt comfortable. And keeps practicing with Ros, i can't gnikcuf concentrate mannnnz. Hell no, nothing gonna be bad for F? pretty please. Or regarding the dance competition.

1930pm,

My heart breaks & breakdown terribly.
& thanks, for making the first thought of it's sucha a waste!

:)))

2010-05-18T04:29:00.000-07:00

Of all the topic, He texted me,
R: i wanna be a super hero.
I: -.- then? what will it be?
R: guessed please?
I: TSK! Superman? Spiderman? my favourite winnie the pooh?
R: I wanna be YOURMAN!
I: (speechless) but thanks, you make my tiring day with a smile!

I find this interesting msg from R, so i post :)
...

Having a tense warm up today for guys&juniors and a minor warm up for Ladies. heeegs!
Tomorrow instructor coming and hooope everything goes on well, pretty please.
Guys and Ladies?

;(

2010-05-17T06:26:00.000-07:00

I think i became not original because i more likely preferable the spicy seaweed, OHNO!
Only people close to meknow this or if you came across my facebook everyday, you'll know :)
RIGHT ROSE! :)

not as free as bird.

2010-05-17T06:16:00.000-07:00

I've been not busy but my mind wasn't supposed to be where it supposed to be.
Mostly will know.
Mid Year ended todaaay and we're free for a moment from books but im still not free as ever.
We only have two Saturday to finish up the dance. And Amin, we managed to fulfill half of it.
Everyone are in tense for just now practice. Especially after we knew it was beginning of JUNE AND NOT LATE JUNE, Cikguuuu!

Been to library with Rose and her nenek + the divaaa!
We had a lot of fun actually but th topic wise was abit hurting. But we know vv well. And we tried to avoid all the negative. Doesn't worth anything anyway.
Pictures upload soon but dont know when. Next year pun soon kan? HAHAHA!

I've been trying hard to stop dancingggg can? ohman!

-.-

2010-05-14T09:47:00.000-07:00

It's raining now and i feel like crying in the rain that no one know i'm crying.
I wanna sleep in this kind of weather but my eyes simply doesn't wanna to shut the gap.
I needa wake up early tomorrow and I've not tucked in myself in the bed. By right it's already 415 am. Two more hours t go, so do i need to sleep?

third post of the day.

2010-05-14T00:14:00.000-07:00

None of your scars makes me love you less. ;)

ty.

2010-05-13T23:36:00.000-07:00

I dont have enemy/ies neither do i hate people. But i just feel better when they aren't around.

TY!

;]

2010-05-13T22:44:00.000-07:00

Thank you,

Sometimes you just have to pretend that you're happy just to stop everyone from asking what the hell happened. Or worst come to worst, as a attention seeker.

It's been days we're apart and new-less about you, i know and understand why. Therefore, I'll keep waiting for you. I hope you're fine there. I'll make a countdown for you.
13 more daaays.

There's no point and difference if we're still attached or ex, because we're still good as ever. Thanks & I like the way it is. I never hope to talk about the past with you neither you talk about it too. And if we really meant to be again, that's the present. Start a fresh one!

I'm sorry if i treated you boyfriend as my close one ever. I don't think i need to make a difference when he is attached to you or someone else. He's my bestest and it's the same as you. SO?
I know he's attached and it's with you. And I know you too much and i took my own initiative to change and stay a distance apart. However, please don't asked me for more initiative. I know my limit and i know how to take care of it. Don't always peek and point me. Look at how good is your boyfriend. Please God, give me the strength.

Sweetly taken from the above, i guessed. ;]]
Some pictures, as there's no recent photo nowadays. Busy with papers and dance. Thanks Kak Yana for the help. Now, I'm blank to book dance studio.. I have to be fast. All were fully booked based from Rosmiati. I hope everyone present tomorrow please except Faris and please, Have a dance studio for us. Please, Ya Allah.

starve

2010-05-13T21:24:00.000-07:00

I think im growing fat drastically because Ive not been starve for a long time.

-.-"

2010-05-13T00:25:00.000-07:00

I was there when yo said forever and always.

When it supposed to be okay, I’ve been not okay for quite some time, i suppose it becomes okay to be not okay.

FTW!

2010-05-11T08:10:00.000-07:00

Kau sedap ea tuduh aku macam-macam, da puas da cukup menuduh? F-O!
Beh kau pikir kau baik tang celah gigi aku uh!
Beh kau balik lambat, kenape? jual badan pat lorong pe? musibattttt.
Kau serak kan beh nak finatic ngn aku, pukitiang uh!

;)

2010-05-09T08:14:00.000-07:00

Happy Mother's Day!

;O ohhhhh/

2010-05-08T22:34:00.000-07:00

Had my breakfast at P.S Cafe. I ate scrambleeee. Thanks love!
Sent me home and yea, I'm blogging now. I wanna take a 'nap' soon.
I woke up about 8 am. Due to his alarm clock! [phonecalls]
Dressed up and met him at 10? Reached there about 1030am. Thought of going Tiong Bharu Plaza for some event, wooo~ Not confirm.
Also, need some self-study for tomorrow's paper. Social Studies!
I really wanna to study and see how much can i absorb la, Im tired of wasting my time.
However, i can only concentrate on Monday because of Miss T.B.H is teaching. She's more moralize.

grrrr-----

Im still waiting for your absence to end in the next 2-3 weeks? IMYSM! ;(
Eventhou, it's the result day but I think it's positive.

Ya Allah.

2010-05-07T19:17:00.000-07:00

Ya Allah, mana kah dirinya yang Kamu sembunyikan.
JANGAN sesekali beritahu aku bahwa dia kalah dalam acara itu, ya Allah.
Aku akan terus jaga diri aku seperti apa yang kamu pesan. Tapi tolong, jangan membayarku dengan kata-kata negatif.
Aku bukan sesiapa untuk engkau peduli selain dari seorang kawan yang akan terus kasi masalah untuk engkau tolong selesai kan. Dan sekarang, aku punya satu masalah besar.
Tolong Ya Allah. Pada Nya, dia betol2 salah kah? Dia tidak dibenarkan peluang kedua? Dia betul2 jahat kah? Dia sampah di mata masyarakat kah? Dia tidak boleh lanjut kan pelajarannya kah?
Memang, Memang dia salah dan ada balasan nya. Tapi bukan dengan cara berikut ya Allah.

Aku mohon, anggapan aku ini salah. Aku mohon, apa-apa perkara buruk yang jadi itu salah. Aku mohon, kalau betul sekali jua, aku minta pinjam sehari untuk bersemuka.

MR IMY!

2010-05-04T07:30:00.000-07:00

Left a day & I'll be worried about the result.
I'll miss you if the truth shows negative. I'll miss you, I swear.
You may not read or came across to my post but I'm gonna tell you here, I missed - Will miss - Misses you.
You'll have extra care from my prayers and whatever happens, no matter what's the obstacle, you'll be the first to know I'm thankful to have you back from childhood like 5 years ago and get to be with you for like a week or 5 days?
However, I wanna seek thousands of apology for making our days miserable about Shaz matter.
You "HELPS" and I'm thankful. You know what you did, Mr Happy/Degil/Psychotic.

Mr, I really doesn't want a negative feedback of you in the court soon. IDC if you gonna return to her or WTV. It doesnt have to do with feelings but it's your reputation. And further studies.
And I know it's all were your fault to commit in those offence but i really care here!
I hope you could sense some lighten over my prayers. I used t hate you as much as I hate Pink colour but now, you change me completely. Not to love pink but to accept your attitude, whereabouts, behaviour and etc.
You knock a sense in my head and made a wake up call to eventually love people for the sake of God and not to commit hatred, enemies and fights because it's gonna be very painful to our prophet every time Malay/Islam fight/hate/enemy. Imagine how hurtful for prophet t uphold and sacrifice of Malay/Islam community?
You also mention about loves. I know it doesn't make sense if people commented that love is forever. Obviously, i know that it wont last because everyone will die. And all people will face more failure but we can change not to be successful but lesser of failure. As whatever in Quran is already predicted by from the Above. How wonderful life is to be guided with this kind of people. Bad boy + Islamic in every corner. I hope we didn't break the friendship we built for like few days. Because with your welcome, I feel much closure to know a bit-by-bit to God. Added with my Family helps, Insyallah.
Thanks from the Above, God!

Jauhilah beliau dari seksaan di Makhamah nanti!

"-.-

2010-05-03T01:38:00.000-07:00

YOU ARE TOO MUCH TO DEACTIVATE MY SIM KCUF!
TRY!

Im fine

2010-05-03T00:52:00.000-07:00

Everything happens for a reason. -.-"

It's been a long time i blog a post. Foremost, idk if what i did was right. Ive made up my mind t stop EVERYTHING!
Therefore, Im sure my decision satisfied me and not you. Put aside my selfish, but who cares?
You showed me no concern and you came t me when youre bored. How i know?
Because your first conversation otp was, Im bored uh ~
KCUF UH BORED!

Overall, Im fine w my GFs and F.
He spent his night w me. Im glad t know him.

LOST.

2010-04-24T05:40:00.000-07:00

You come to love not by finding the perfect person,
but by seeing an imperfect person perfectly.

I could never feel you ever since we are known as attachable together.
I don't know whats in you that you decided to change totally, I feels lost.
You gave me a dozen roses, 11 real and one fake.
You said "I'll love you till the last one dies", does that for real now?
I think love is all about maturity shows. but is this loves show maturity?
I've no say now, We're nothing and I'm moving on. I've someone new.

I'm bad and for sure everyone think so. But how about you?

...

2010-04-21T08:24:00.000-07:00

I'm stays calm and patient as long as possible, for the sake of your attitude and to make this relationship stay strong.

:D

2010-04-21T04:26:00.000-07:00

past few days were hectic w birthday. ROSES & ME :D
And tomorrow is TIQ's turn, planning what to do.

After school today, met my father then to meet Khalidah & Qistina.
Miss her & yea, we gossip and laughed aloooot.

..

2010-04-15T07:15:00.000-07:00

-Thanks for his doings!-

:)

2010-04-15T05:07:00.000-07:00

This is KCUF thing.
How can you give me hope to have a pair of wings with things you do now?
I mean, this is ridiculously stupid! I hate you & i halfway mean it!
What are you trying t do? mistreating me? abused my well-treated love for years?
I know you're busy with work, im jolly understand but now, i gnikcuf don't understand what you mean, you don't have time because of your work? Then, from the start we knew, how come i didn't know you're this busy?!
you expected me to text you to school and dismissal from school, i changed & i do it with not the intention to brag now. But please, I've changed for the sake that i given you less attention. However, do you? or DID you?
I've wordless to say. I don't expect it to be here. I thought you're the right one after so long I've been loveless by an opposite gender. I'm saddened and always be.
Even though I'm smiling due to my GF's birthday, but still..

'We are shaped and fashioned by what we love'

Boring post w what i do today,

2010-04-10T22:00:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone,
Burnt my Saturday with the 'awesome event' called, RYOG.
Idk why didn't i helping out with the games that much. Because the whole day, I started with coming late. Sitting at the hall w/o doing anything as there's no need help. Rose, Hadi & Fitri came to chit chat with me. Followed by watching captain's ball. Then to needle room for helping out with the fashion event. We really in rush. After Fashion Event, we packed up and by the time clock strikes 230 where we were instructed to go to th main school hall before we get to dismiss.
We really do open table talk. And nothing can cure w/o our own initiative.
Well, put aside. After that i went home and start the Clap event day.
Fashion show & Dance. Follow up with Miss Nurul's treat. We gossiped and laughing.
Tiq and me go and have C for awhile but an uncle disrupt us. Oh-Never-mind Uncle.
After which, we made our way home w cabbed.
And this event really lasted till 11pm! oh-hahahaha!

I miss you, instead.
Thanks for asking me to be patient and high blood pressure rises up! ;Z

smile or frown?

2010-04-08T03:10:00.000-07:00

HEY gonna private this blog so soon, maybe after weekends?
Do give me your email and if you're late then just beep me at facebook.

Anw, I PONDER I'm soon-to-be-in-someone-love's. :D
I hope it works vvv well and stable. Well, It's been a year and few countless months I'm detached w anyone except girlfriends and boyfriends. Hahaha, it's gonna sounds too funny and a joke to me. I don't know, i just hope it goes well and of course those ups and downs occurs. Well, i expect too many of ups, duhhh!

;(

2010-03-29T06:31:00.000-07:00

Hello, things were settled down but not at it is.
Well, just let it happened. And for god sake, I'm not gotta let you go if you stay and karma-ing us because you should know the karma goes to you and not us!
Whatever KCUF!

Okay, the only things that is 'kinda' perfect and sweet eventhou it's have the moment of ups and downs - LOVE.
Oh god, help me to decide a better way for me. I dont wished t spread things up due t everyone have their own downs now. So, let it be and decide later.

That's all for today. bye.

Dotszxqszx!

2010-03-21T00:01:00.000-07:00

Hey, it's my problem and my business to hide my relationship status.
Get this clear and straight in your head, only my close ones know better thank you do.

phew!

2010-03-20T23:18:00.000-07:00

Heyzzz, you don't like what i like then it's too bad!
You don't have t be bothered about me because you've never think of me before. You only knows how t sign my report slip and be upset w it.
SO? whatever! i think i follows your step. you know why? you join some event like Chingay and whatever to perform. So, same goes t me!
UHHHH~
I have my own life. i mean, my interest is unlike yourrrrrrrrrrrrrs!

...

2010-03-15T04:59:00.000-07:00

Had class picnic, more to Malay & Chinese outing though.
What the hell, this is what they call UNITED ?!
We invited you but you gives the negative thoughts.

Was fun with th rain pouring, sing and dance, playing kites, games of different kind & foods and drink preparation.
I dont have any comment about th picnic. It's just a fun and basic outing.
Photo will be post soon.

I've my schedule unpacked for starting but fully packed towards school reopen, OHNO!
I hate this. Rehearsal, Collection, Dance performance & ETC..

...perangai mau macam sec 4 ea.

2010-03-12T07:16:00.000-08:00

Kau fikir anak laki kau bagus ke ape! Anak mau jage uh!

Ea, aku tak emphasize kan minah ah, but think and reflect of yourself ea.
Jangan fikir ko maki aku rabak2, aku dok diam aku buat bodo ea.
Whatever uh, but can you dont be fucking retarded and msg me. BEBUAL LA!

T-T

2010-03-12T03:49:00.000-08:00

I'm PERPLEXED!
I don't know why am i behaving like this. but i just cant be bother any longer.
I'm soon letting go of everything and falling everything apart. I can no longer stay stronger.
P/S: I know some people/creature may be delighted to see this.

ohlalala!

2010-03-11T04:20:00.000-08:00

I'M FINE, I MEAN
WE'RE FINE :DD
HI 5!

;D WINKSSS.

2010-03-03T21:08:00.000-08:00

I have a goood, fascinating, marvelous, bravo, wonderful, cheerful & etc etc etc,
Friendship Day today :D

.

2010-03-02T04:23:00.000-08:00

It doesn't last, anw.

nuisance

2010-03-02T03:44:00.000-08:00

She's innocence and everyone knows that well. So, you're just making a nonsensical compliment for no reason. Can you like don't be random because you look like KCUF!
Hey, wanna bitch, bitch in front of me. You don't have t pout and rolled your eye during recess time.
You think i'm blind or whatever? You told me, you're straight forward, So whats now?

poor girl with lack of loves.

2010-03-01T03:19:00.000-08:00

A PRETENDER GIRL's STORY.

Hey whats up with your mouth and inner organ? I really don't know what t say.
Youre totally gnikcuf different. Youre no longer a girl that i knew over the years, And I'm sorry t mention if that you're no longer not even a friend to me but just a schoolmate.
Can you stop pretend in front of every one, EVERYONE!
You're being an asshole individually w me but in front of him you're acting everything are my fault and I'm supposed t be blame!
Youre hypocrite and majority knows that except for him. Well, love have blinded him.
If you gonna make him scolded my friends, i don't care if you're just telling him and asked him not t do anything or whatever, I'll still haunt you as a payment.
At first you said, you not gonna let any guys touches you until they have accepted.
But whats now? touches til thigh still considered just TOUCH? What a cheap girl , letting anyone t touch you
And nevertheless, if you gonna do the same thing to what you did t my vvv bestfriend, then I'll just laughed at him and tell you, good job and congrats.
HAHAHAHA, after those touching and leaning, you still considering t accept him? KCUF!
Youre cheap? or toying him t let everyone couldnt get him? or like, whoaaah ____! what a hot [ unlikely to be] BF? KCUF OFF!

Anw, why you're soooo jealous? think twice. This is the second time you did this t me. If really I'm you're BF, then you've shouldn't did all this in the above t me.
Now, I'm unsure, regretted, feels neglected, speechless,

zzzzz.

2010-02-22T05:36:00.000-08:00

I'm upset, demoralised, revolted, cheerless, *&%^$#@&%*^..... that tomorrow i have t run 3.2KM.
Which i never did before except last year out of 4 years. I'm not proud but hesitated.
Oh no, apart from that, i still own a lot. MESSED!

Where's my pooh's drawing? my friends? or whomever when needed not on th right time?
Selfish? by all means.

HAMKA :D

2010-02-19T05:32:00.000-08:00

Muhd Hamka make my day w his drawing :D
He started w a smile.
Then, i asked for more,

Then :

Cahaya Matahari says:
EAAAAA! cute eaaaaa
u drew?
! Muhd Hamka, says:jyeah lorh
haha
cute kn i know(:

Cahaya Matahari says:CUTEEE EEEA! dont deleteee

! Muhd Hamka, says:
haha
u want me draw againu nk ape? haha
Cahaya Matahari says:
nak
nak winnie the pooh bole?
! Muhd Hamka, says: okay then
(:
wait

Cahaya Matahari says:
REALLY?wah, okay:D waaaaaiting :D

! Muhd Hamka, says:hehe
wait

& here it goes, [He imagine taoooo!]

& ! Muhd Hamka, says:
haha. thanks(:
lagy2 u nk ape?
haha
Cahaya Matahari says:i naaaak, taktao eau draw your fav caroon
cartoon *

! Muhd Hamka, says:
oohk. hehe. jup tau
Cahaya Matahari says::D okay waiiiiiting
! Muhd Hamka, says:
hehe
jup tau

Cahaya Matahari says:ok :)

! Muhd Hamka, says: done. lawa?

We kept silence mood because he produced a lil cute bear w a pair of bugsbunny bear :D

Again silence, and he imitated my d.pictureeee! :D

HAHAHAHA, HAPPY HAPPY!

urgh.

2010-02-16T08:38:00.000-08:00

I HATE YOU!
You're simply ironic, seriously. Why on the earth you holds something that is not involving you?

TooT!

2010-02-12T06:19:00.000-08:00

MY FAMILY CAN BE nuisance!

whatever, this is what happened when comparison is made.

2010-02-12T05:17:00.000-08:00

I went out and home early for the sake of my aunt.
Okay, i knew I'm in wrong. Then what makes you think, i don't need t go home.
I know you're angry and spoke this way and sentenced. And if in that case, what makes me think you're just the same as typical mum that used t say that t her child? I mean, I'm otw home so whats there t fuss?
Oh if Umi, you can still relax and shake leg? I'm not here t compared but that isnt making me any sense not t object or making face?
And what you mean again by I'm not listening t anyone talks that every time they talk i 'haiz-ing' them away? I'M NOT, for goddess sake!
You're giving me that attitude so what again makes you think i can't did that way?
For goddess sake la, I'm not here t complain t anyone but type whatever that's not extended t any violence that I'm gonna do la.
Common, i don't ask for more but please, i need'a respect too.
I'm not trying t be count-minded but common that's her room too. Cooperate la.
I cant be doing everything for the room and end up she destroyed everything?
Im not here t brat or anything but can you have some sense. If its really not your room, you can have your white box out of my room. Maybe i'm to particular of you spending nights at my bed but common you're the one who wanna have your bed at lower deck. So, act it that way.
If you gonna compared me with brothers, I think you're semantically confusion.
Maybe they're good enough when they're still kid, so what makes you think they can be that same way when they grown up?

because now, when they have a pair of leg t walk and dont need your consent t let them off, they go beyond it. Overnight? Homeless for like 3 days? Booked in and out house like a hotel?
You can view and see it yourselves.
So, which one you want? Atleast, w my moderation, the timing that i reached home late are their reaching home as early as possible.
Of course they're afraid of father that kills them every night through out their studies. But w that kind of tightness, just look what they did now?
Smoke? Drink? Pub? Overnight? this is KCUF!
You know why? they wanna try? ohno, i think they're likely t be 'kambing keluar kandang'
UHHHHHH!

wthaterv ea, Otak kontot.

2010-02-11T02:08:00.000-08:00

If you think Umi can say the way she is, what makes you think I can't speaks like her?
KCUF! Don't toy me around since toys are silence. I have perfect number of organ,
EYES LEGS HANDS MOUTH EARS! I can talk back rudely.
If you gonna used the excuses that im change drastically, i think you're wrong. It's just that it's been a long time since i acted this way. Added that you made me think that I'm not your child that you knows me well.
Can you have the sense of patience? seriously, i think you're not only lack but i think you doesn't own any of that sense.
If you gonna make my latest fault to get me scolded by you from the previous fault, it really doesn't make sense. I SWEAR.
It shows me that you're such a disgrace towards your own child.
bye, off t nap.

Sheeeat.

2010-02-08T06:20:00.000-08:00

Hello, School was absolutely bad for me. I mean, I serious.
She freaked me out. I was complaininggg but nothing resist me from avoid it.
UHHHH, i talked also wrong, i don't talk you scream.

Then after the staying back and etc, thought of going t support Netballers but due to timing that strike 415pm, i better not t go because if not, I wouldn't have t support her ;(
As i knew, I'm like somehow latecomer. The atmosphere wasn't that heated.

I'M SORRY ROSELYNNA!

Rose, I have a new best friend, RP :D

GAMES.

2010-02-07T09:34:00.000-08:00

I'm online and playing game with YY! :D
I went t accompany Sya&Zul for jogged at Queenstown at about 5pm?
Till 7pm. Sent Sya home to kill time and met my sister do to her bank book.
GTG :DD

;(

2010-02-06T17:17:00.000-08:00

A veryveryvery Good morning to readers
I woke up early to meet miss N, but was cancelled upon some matter that came.
Nah, i wanna go library today, I mean, I have tooooooo.

2010-02-06T04:32:00.000-08:00

I'm bored here, I had my Saturday at my cousin's house.
Have fun still but bored because we're nothing much to do.

Well, Friday's evening i went t Debating between Outram and Balestier.
Ohno, adv because we won easily. Disadv, this wasnt as challenging as the real debate occurs.
It was suppose t either lack of time, unprepared or participate for the sake of Balestier?
Okay, I'm not doing any discrimination here but i don't think neither do i nor supporter and debater find it challenging. Because you can easily judge by watching then debate.
Met GF & Hadi before heading t Bedok. Had dinner, chat, slacking and home separately.

Fashion, updated please.

2010-02-02T05:04:00.000-08:00

Asian people or should i bold Singaporean's people is not daring?
I don't mind or rather do i care much Singaporeans not being daring. Precisely, it's their own priorities. However, for goodness sake don't mind you NEVER compliment whatever they wore because it will be way better for you to keep silence and reflect what you gonna have your says.
YEAR 2010, how long you gonna wear just tee and jean or Bermudas or skirt?
Oh common, change the way foreign look down on us for Fashion arenaaaaa. For typological wise, I've nothing t say but t let you be.

It's really a piece of booshit. I was otw home when i realized a group of worker eventually gossiping a lady with age between 20's? was wearing a quarter-high cut heel, long & sleeveless blazer with legging. I find it quite interesting. Very well foreign in Asian concept. Just that it's sleeveless.
Well of course, you can't congruence it's fashion concept between foreign and Asian but it's okay for you to have a similar concept, isn't?! KCUF.
Should i put in a word that they're 'outdated'? Oh-no, are you really in a world living your reality or just in your outdated old fashioned arena in your dream land miss -es?

dream boyfriend.

2010-02-01T03:44:00.000-08:00

Bold what applies for a dream boyfriend

1. brown hair | black hair | blond hair | red hair
2. tall | short | same height as you
3. ears | eyebrow piercings | snake bites | no piercings | other
4. tattoos | no tattoos
5. skater | punk | player | indie | cowboy | musician | prep | jock | other
6. shy | outgoing | in between
7. mellow | hyper | loud | quiet
8. blue eyes | brown eyes | green eyes
9. wears tight jeans | wears normal jeans | other
10. converse | vans | nikes | skate shoes | other
11. listens to: metal | rap | indie | classic rock | country | all | other
12. compliments too much | compliments when necessary
13. jokes around all the time | jokes when necessary
14. sensitive | hides emotion [ depends ] | acts tough
15. hobbies: computer | music | skating | sports | drawing | fishing |other
16. loves to hold | loves to be held
17. tons of muscles | fit | skinny | chubby
18. pale | average | tan | dark
19. cusses a lot | never cusses | only cusses around friends
20. wavy hair | curly hair | straight hair | long hair [ depend ]| short hair | longish hair

.R.A.N.D.O.M.

WTH.

2010-01-27T21:00:00.000-08:00

Cheerleading in one hour's time, we gonna strive it :)
All the best, fiveee awesone ones.

Having survey just now about courses and came into temasek DAE.
Wanted t apply that, Affidah recommended me. I know it's like unfair or something but i really enthusiatic into that course. APPAREL DESIGN.
I need to earn less than 14 point. Atleast 12? WTH. CCA is excluded, KCUF!
Then is it getting A1 wasting of effort?

GTG, bye complab hello main school hall! :D

HEELS Killing Me.

2010-01-26T05:26:00.000-08:00

It's been the third week, probably, of school. Without medical certificate, truancy or late.

It's a greatest impact this year that not only me but the rest of the mostly malay peeps feels/having.

1. Getting bored each day.

2. Everyone went missing, unnoticable.

3. Olevel the NEXT favourite things.
4. Reduce C.

5. Everything goes wrong.

Basically, Outram secondary school getting bored with no interesting and spectacular event or morning assembly. Ironic students from just secondary 3 [ baru setengah jagung, jangan macam paham uh].

Homeworks have always be my friend but now, BESTFRIEND.

Every single daaaays, without fail, Ive been receiving stacks of worksheet or textbook.

I don't mind, despite, with new principal, Im kinda feels 'okay' to proceed.

Anw, im craving for foreign heels. They're daring than asian [like durrrh].

I wanna stay there for just the sake of fashion, PARIS!

Studded heels, Thick heels & Slim stick heels. Only if asian doesnt feels awkward looking a seventeen year old lady wears that kind.

School sucks me alot, today.

:) postless?

2010-01-19T04:15:00.000-08:00

I know ive not been udated my blog since new year starts. Busy with things here & there.
Anw, im fine with everything i keeps thinking ' do i deserve t be in secondary five/one now? '
Im still not focussing on my studies, and in my lala land. I keep having my hobby in class - daydreaming.
This is critically hurts and wince me alot. I hope, I could stop thinking of getting out but it wasnt as easy as Mr Ooi said. ' Forget it Forget it '.
GO UMI GO UMI!

Been meeting K nowdays. And we getting closer, we werent as close as we are now. It's been 5 years knowing each other? hahhahahha.
Slacks and study with him for 3 days consistently. :DD Rose proud of me anot? ;)

Dance performance in few days time and I'm off to relax for awhile. :) YAY.
Rosmiati, we gonna rock it like few last time of performing already :)

2009.

2010-01-01T01:37:00.000-08:00

Happy New Year everyone.

Yesterday was my performance, everything going on kinda smoothly.
But preparation were extremely suckass.
Thanks God for putting everything the best way for th year of 2009.
I hope I'll be bless by God again in 2010.
Through out each year, you've been giving me the meaning of life.
Ups and Downs. Happiness and Sadness.
Eventhough it's unbearable for me t handle, you gifted me with nice people.
Family, Friend & Girlfriends.
Thousands of thanks to You for written me a nice life. Eventhough mostly were hurts.
But I thanked that untill now I managed to cover everything ina proper way.

Towards the end of the year, Im covered w alot of difficulties.
Love? everything about that.
Love can be so hurtful when it leave just like that. And it can be so peaceful when it care like a diamond.
But Love have made me down th drain that almost kills me w depression. However, having God gave me ROSE, I'm strong enough t face the next day.
With that, Im pleased to say, i've survived till the year of 2010 w/o having any sorrow to bring forward today.
All were perfect settled. Eventhough God gave me TGF just in 2009 to closen the gap, I would like to say it wasnt as difficult as it seen.

We spent time almost together in school, She forced me to open book and study for Nlevel.
She was too busy asking how's my result. We spent time with alot of gossip, complain & happiness everywhere. The best place was at her fav coffeeshop.
We dance at studio & esplanade. We perform at school & exprimary school. Im the designer and she was my model. We won w a great honoured. We argue. We black faced each other.
We punched, hugs, throw things around and laughed our asses out. We take pictures everywhere w/o have to be ashamed. We rule every place we went. We are not typicals. We are not bitches on the street. We can if you wanna see. We expressed things out. We wore heels together. We earned blister together. We webcam with our OHNO faces. We hurt by guys together ;0 but we still strong. We own the same fav colour, RED!
& moreeeeeeeee.

Im extremely cheered with all above. Thanks God, Thanks Rose.
People may says friends doent last. Yes, it can be true, But memory last forever.
How Short-Term-Memory, i could be, It wont happened if Im gonna forget those.
If it gonna happened to me, sooner or later, It'll appear again.
& people my says boyfriend is important than friends. Yes true, but Boyfriend never gonna be important than my T.Girllfriend.

2009 have been a year where i found truckload of new things as well as where i found truckload of hurts in every corner.
Therefore, I would like to say goodbye a year of 2009 and welcome 2010.
Bless me with a good day ahead! :)

;) ;( ;O

2009-12-28T05:25:00.000-08:00

It's been a few posts I've been not in a good mood. IDK how to make it smoothly as an ever.
TGF have been advicing me & care me too much, & I felt uneasy. Nothiong gets into my head.

You told me there’s no need to talk it out because it’s too late
So, to proceed, I took it slowly, I took your words & walked away. What else you want?
To commit suicide because of you? omg, that's not gonna happen dearrr. I'll would rather commit suicide because of my mum than yooou, Eff You See Kay Deaaar!

Okay, went out with my childhood friends just now to buy my school stuff.
I'm sorry TGF, i went to Vivo instead to get newurban male, but they still dont sell the colour i want.
Then, i went to everlast and bought purple colour bag, it look like yours w the diamond shape.
Then when to Famous and bout Lacoste shoe. A little of purple.
So, it gonna be purple & green mixture. Ohlalalala! :)

Gonna prepared for my countdown dance at somewhere. On 31st, like duhh!
Hamzah probably joining w his clique. Hopefully managed t get six or mooore.
Will be meeting gf Syahirah tomorrow and the rest for practice.
See you there, babes! :)

;(

2009-12-27T05:19:00.000-08:00

Went out w M t causeway point for Lunch and slacked.
He's the first guy t keep me waiting for like 15 minutes?! get another scolding.
Ohokay, I know I'm at wrong, I'm sorry girl. In this case, i really doesnt know the truth.
I know you'll never know me again because I'm staying away from him :)
Like what he loves to say, PEACE?!

Im tired and watching Singapore Idol.
Then dozeee off.

pheeeew.

2009-12-25T08:43:00.000-08:00

Hello readers,

Simply, i had enough. Why on the earth i should ever think of this when im just sweet 16 turning to 17?
Common, i've shouldnt let it ruined everything. Or maybe, i should put it in a way that I shouldn't be in LOVE?
Naaah, I think I can if I'm blind then. Whatever, even blind people in looove.

1. NOW, I've been in a place where I think I'm all alone t probably find a way to stop everything.
Sometimes, i wished i could stop the time rather than backward the time.
If you gonna t threathened me for not answering your call nor not t reply your msg, so be it.
Jolly well, complained t my mum. Since youre soooo kamchingbo w my mum kan/
& it gonna be so gnikcuf obvious that im gonna get another lectured by her because of your gnikcuf mouth.

2. Ea doh, ko fikir ko boleh buat ape ko suke? Kalau berani try la.
Ko punye balak yang bikin kecoh, ko nak salahkan aku? Beh ko fikir balak ko ade samseng aku takot? Ea, ko kalau nak bawa kaki-kaki ko, tak payah la nak on call aku. Ko pikir aku sembunyi lobang mane. Ko yang patut sembunyi lobang tikus biar aku tak dapat ko. Nak step ko bawa kaki-kaki ko pikir aku pun nak bawa? Wei, ni hal kite buat la hal kite. Ape barang bawa teman?
Kalau ko bole hentam aku, jangan pikir ko senang2 lari lintang pukang. Kaki-kaki gagah aku cari ko.
Lebih elok kalau ko bace, sebab ape tao. Biar ko duduk, pikir masak-masak nak touch and go aku.

Don't stalk me eff you see kay.

Imsorry for th above, i just cant take it any longeeer. I had enough & leading everything on my way.
If it given to let me loss a sense of love, i accepted. But if it wasnt, i'm accepting it w open hands.
& one in a millions of hope, not t hurt me.

2009-12-20T20:38:00.001-08:00

hey people,
out of my mind, i miss my current principal, mdm Choy
Why? because she now upgraded herself w headquater of something [i'm not sure]
And been replaced by mr Loh, whom is quite funny and stuff. I like it but i still prefer her as she is more encouraging for speeching and courage wise.
Enough for that.

Ive shopped yesterday, just around few shops.
Charles&Keith, Pedro & Cotton On. Bought a few of tops and bottoms w my bro cash :)
Winksss.
Thanks for that, he shopped quite a few tops too :)

Pictures will update later or few days time. Countdown in and hours time, my aunties and cousins coming. Going off t town later t shop again, probably? HOHO.

missing a guy friend.

2009-12-18T09:50:00.000-08:00

Ive broken a bottle glass w/o noticing it hurt my hand and bled continously.
I think i was dreaminggg of my handsomeprince. Okay, whateverrr.
Im just putting things on it's on placeeee, I doesnt wanna think to much of it as i knew it's gonna worth nothing.

Today:
Anw, Ive promoted to sec 5 with 14 point, i know it's looooooow. But what ive think for so long was, I need t promote to sec 5 & my future gonna start critically at sec 5 onwards.
I wished you all the best and always you my guy friend in outram, Haikal.

Sabah on MARCH mr Hazlan, weeeee!

the true now

2009-12-18T06:17:00.000-08:00

Perasaan cintamu yang kau pendam
Titis hujan airmata & tenang sebentar pedih semula.

TGF&S :)

2009-12-17T01:27:00.000-08:00

Coversation w S recently,

S: Hey, atlast balik jugak.
Me: Hey, a'ah la. I know you missed me, tu pasal balik. Kesian nye pasal kan.
S: Nasib baik youre manusia yang ade perasan. hahaha, you dont know right how much i missed you.
Me: Okay, da.
S: Yelar, how's you?
Me: Physically fine.
S: Mentally? gila?
Me: Haha, A'ah. Gila kan ko, OPPS! Selua dalam koyak tak?
S: Babi la ko ni, hahaha. Mata buta ade uh.
Me: Step tak nmpk pulak kan.
S: You jangan nak step lari dari topic ea. ASAL?
Me: See you and talk about it.
S: Now at 3pm? Set okay. Tempat biase.
----TOOTT---- [ hang up]
Me: Babi la ko ni.

Ive feel better after talking things out w TGF and S!
Thanks for the Caramelchocolicious, Caramel Frapp, Bolonise, Banana split & POOHBEA&R :)
& TGF, let's eat at the coffeeshop again. I think im gonna loveee it as much as you looove it :)

TGF Help me.

2009-12-14T08:12:00.000-08:00

Senangkan di tipu dan diperbodohkan oleh yang jantina nya lelaki.
I could never believe how strong his heart t simply cheat on me. It's like finally?
I dont believe, it must be either his people behind him have been disliking me and hating me.
I felt terribly disorganised.

Rose, I wont let her happy t see me in this way. I sweaaar.
I'll make sure i slash myself if she gotta t know i am.
It's a gnikcuf ridiculous matter.

However, i still dont believe he did that. Must be someone slashed him a knife t force him doing that.

Meeting TGF tomorrow, gonna share a month story together. I misses her trucklorrycarmotorbicycle alot! :)
And I'm not gonna tell you, readers, much about my TGF. No Snatching alloweddd.
Remember this picture, love? REXONA?

okay, abeh bangge?

2009-12-14T06:19:00.000-08:00

Just get back home yesterday. Missing home for like a month.
been hearing complains from sister. I dont think i have a pictures t upload about my holidays.
Im just missing veryone i know in Singapore. Never before leaving my house for completely a month. BlaBla, skip skip.

I realised that malay nowdays 'perasan tak boleh belah' with a english name. Like Khatijah aka Catty? Katrina aka Cat? Hazuan aka Hanz?
Hello, English tak ke mane nak buat bangge pula. And eventhou you still at those majority of caucasian people, but if youre malay blood still malay blood.
Tak payah la nak berangai mat salleh tepi longkan. Tolong faham.
I dont have any thought t get jealous? jauh sekali. But im just getting it ridiculous to hear it.
Abeh bangge dapat bf/gf tinggal foreign country? Okay please, Tolong faham dan sedar.

:)

2009-11-28T02:14:00.000-08:00

Wei Makcik, Aku pun rasa kehilangan dan rindu dekat kau la, Tengku Roselynna! :))
I MISS You, TGF! :)
Gonna hear your complain sooooooooon.

:) TENGKU ROSELYNNA!

:)

2009-11-11T21:38:00.000-08:00

HELLO EVERYONE.
MOOD EXTREMELY EXTRAVANGAZA HAPPY :)

Firstly we won the champion of Environment Fashion Show 2009.
I made an improvement from 1st runner up t champion.
With the hardwork and perseverance of Mr Tan, we swept all the event.
And won small award of 2 out of 4 award :) isnt that a great boom of improvement :)
Ive had my tears of joy and hugs, HI5 and congrats t us!

Secondly, i would like t apologise for giving black face and all the scoldings made.
I know you guys can did better than yesterday, esp JUNE :)
I appreciated you guys wanting t join me for this kind of event. Im sure we gonna strive hard for this :)
Anw, we should partyyyyyy! party party! :)

Thirdly, WTF A school. You better shut your Fking mouth okay.
We won now, so whats up? wanna me get June t break your headgear or what?
it shouws that we improved three award straight unlike you, what? two award?
Thanks god, it shows you not t be over confident. So what if you won champion last year and we won this year?
There's no way for you to be proud of. We did alot of hardwork. Unlike you, used last year head gear? OHMY, so glamourous huh!
You better shut your F mouth. There's no hurts for us if you gonna say all those vulgarities.
Because we won? nothing change darlinggggs!
Well, meet you at zouk's event.

Fourtly, for the merit and consultation prizes, im pleased that youre fine.
And never see any drops of tears. For all the congrats, Thanks alot, truckloadsss! :)
Wish you all the best ahead! :) See you next year, most probably! :)

Fifthly, Im going off to my holidays in four days time. And miss all the dance practices.
But dec event im coming down! :) So, by hook or crook, i'm gonna book my air ticket. :)
See you guys soon, in December.

Off to meet AI :)

;(

2009-11-10T07:20:00.001-08:00

Pictures are up at Facebook for Fashion2009.
Felt terrible today, not screwed but something wasnt right and i wished t get rid of it fast.
Idk how t face it any longer.

Fashion show was fineee, except few.
Bye& 7hours to the final of fashion 2009 day.
pleeeease let us feels paid off by what we have done. & hope it doesnt dissappointed us, Everyone in Outram. Models wiseee, please.

2009-11-09T09:28:00.000-08:00

Kawan macam gini pe!
WHATEVER!

Ruined th term called friends.

2009-11-07T21:11:00.000-08:00

SE, First of all, I'm gonna make an apology after what i have done.
I know you gonna read this, and I'm fine w it.
The ignorance made wasnt on purpose. Im trying hard t be the place where i could finally give in and go on.
But after a while, it doesn't work. I can't be giving you hopes when i don't know if it come true or what.
I'm speechless now. I think i shouldn't have known any of you. Either AI.
And ive various of reason why youre not in my love's position. Your are more or less my Closefriend.

I miss the times we get to meet and laughing our ass out. Botanical garden times.

3 days.

2009-11-04T08:58:00.000-08:00

My day wasnt coloured w nicely and peacefully way.
Everything seems t be so hurried and 24 hours wasnt enough a day.
Had competition in 4 days more, Packed to Holidays for like a week? & Stay at Malaysia while mum's away. Ohno, can i decline it?
I missed the chalet which held end of Nov and Sentosa on 19th Nov!
Ive tearily asked my brother t change air ticket, but nothing is possible. I wanna join the fun people.

Skipped the drama-mama part. As it unworth to talk.

Had Art class the whole week and eyebags getting a chance t get thicker and black-er.
Facing the clothes that pathetically had done only half of it only. Getting evryone stressed up and now, many teachers pretending t involved.
Pssst, I missed Abby that had t flight off too soon!
This is my show and designers, We have the rights to satisfy our clothing. The way it is supposed to be. With the changes made, It took another hours t end it.
Why not from the start this negative comments you bring up? Or is it this is an excuse t put a venge toward us that have badly and lose you for not taking part your student in?
This is childish and ridiculous, okay girl!
With this situation, Ive gut to disrespect you. Youre making thins worst, not only that, aswell as ruined what our needs. Can you just leave us w our own wants. I know you have the rights but please, we need freedom on our way. I know that this will publicity t school but that is 2nd thought. Can we involved this matter not part of the school?!

On Saturday had an event of Syahirah's birthday and GF's outing.
Had fun beginning but not the end of it. Pictures uploaded at facebook. Take a look.
Im sorry after hearing your new today. I know it's easy to leave but hard to forget. Plus that he's your first ever love.

CHEER UP, all the single ladies all the single ladies.
Let put your hands up! :)

Doesn't feel good, take a nap. 0500 am now and wake up at 0700 am..

;(

2009-10-31T06:22:00.001-07:00

YEA, I DONT JOIN ART BUT I TAKE PART IN ART COMPETITION, URGH!

;))

2009-10-30T08:11:00.001-07:00

currently mood: PISSED. FUCKING PISSED OFF!

Things getting fucker man, Nak bebual depan la babi. Tak payah nak jatuh kan aku ape, sial babi fucking dog!
Kau berani datang besok pasal nak hancur kan Sya's birthday, kau memang cari nahas.
With Haikal around you think im fine, Fuck la ea.
You think w/o him, ko bole senang lepas pe? KNN, tak ea.
He'll be there la, fuck. Kite like 12 years gitu. Kalau tak pasal 12 years pun, kite tgl belakang block je sial.
Ko takde mane nye leh lepas la, ko tgl pun tak jauh. Tak mati kalau aku nak jalan.
I told, Haikal and he said, try uh.

HOHOHO, LOVE BESTIE.

GUCCI

2009-10-28T07:54:00.000-07:00

I've been craving for this since sec 3. Eventhought just a short one year, Still th price didnt decreased.
No sale for that bag ever before, WaaaHaaaY? ;(
It cost me $1500 bucks and my brother wont buy me that due t my mum owed that black version. SCREAM!
But i wanna white version, eventhough its the same but colour makes difference still, i want my white version. and i was sad that my mum bought it a month ago. She had alot of different kinds of bag and still wanna snatch that, URGH!

;,(

2009-10-28T07:33:00.000-07:00

KCUF T, she fucking throwing people's talent.
MALAQUE, gonna misses you. Bollywood mari!
Tears wiped off.

Watched Singapore Idol and S-ed quite a number of s___k.
Went home late due to Art, We're terribly behind th time and i felt unwell like now?
My headache kills me and running nose is YLKCUF troublesome.

Had fun w girlf at needle room w miss Nurul. She's awesomeee.
We laughed and planned some party held on in this week.
Gonna have new pictures again pple. ;)
Short post and off to medicine. A liquid one.

;);(

2009-10-26T02:16:00.000-07:00

S-ed thrice (relieved) then had my breakfast. Omellete.
Daze is still on till now. But im trying over it now.
Well, O's math exam in 21 hours from now. Im sitting right infront of laptop with songs on and study.
Manage to cover Vectors, Set and Diagram & Matrices in 3 hours.
Did some Revision under Nlevel syllabus because N and O had not much different except those three chapter, preferrably.
Thanks to Rosmiati for lending me her O's math book. Later to 3 hours study again.
I must score in O's math well, please make my dreams come true. I needa the marks improve tons times alot.

Anw people, im officially staying w/o parent for month starts 16 nov to 14 dec.
Independence. Make all meal by myself, i dont know how am i gonna suffer.
I dont know how to do household, swear! Except washing dishes and clean up?

And people, gonna have party in a week! Waiting for kyrul to reply me.
Gonna bring SE along? idk, cause it's a girl outing. But he made a plan on that saturday night. And most probably, i'll be there till 9pm? or 8pm? Plus cleaning up and waitings.
Ohno, he doesnt mind but i mind, because it's a girlfriendsss outing.
I dont wanna disappoint both because of lack attention, thou. How about Sunday? a NO again!
& plus, he's on his trip to Bali, a day trip. But i can't, babi SE!
Just a day, i bet i can go but sadly and teary, i cant! HAHAHAHA 0-0

whatever above, im having funexcept revision and exam part!

;' (

2009-10-25T07:45:00.000-07:00

Sometimes i find im better off human w/o feelings.
Like REKCUF, you know. Idk how or where i should start.
Im not blaming guys here but i rarely understand why they should somehow do a common mistake?
I know no one reached where perfection is but it's common bloody mistake, okay.
Women did mistake too, but idk how it judge by a guy.

You giving me hopes, hoping i could fly high up the sky and living in blueee and peace.
Where i could only owe you. The place where only i get all your attention and hope, by all mean.
But now, we stay a few distance and what i manage to see were all pieces of hope.
What kind of hope? False hopesss
I knew im unlikely gives you like your past ex-es gave you. Im truly sorry.
I have my egoistic. Therefore, you have it too.
But you cant always hoping me be the same as them. Im what i am. & for the sake to be the same as your ex-es, i cant.
You have to accept me for whom i am but i cant be the one that way too different from who i am.
I don't want t be fooled by the face I wear for a mask, a thousand masks.
Added that none of them is me. & idk if youre out of my life.
I dont think so, neither, do i think so.

Im bloody and teary sad. Here it goes.

His name came up on my hp caller ID

At exactly eleven forty-three.

I answered it in my cheery fashion tone.

As for our late-night talks were always my passion.

But his voice told me that something went wrong as if like a horror movie's Foreshadowing song.

However, Rose taught me to be strong and hearing him took a deep breath and told me the phrase, "We need to talk"

I was put in a daze. And seriously, in daaaze. "You understand don't you? Are you still there?"

I tried to answer as I felt my heart tear, but no okay. As rose told me, my tears not worth anyone that inappropiate.
Apart from tears, a thousand thoughts were ready to spill but my mouth wouldn't talk.

As my eyes began to fill. Thoughts raced through my head. The thought of being alone

Made me feel so afraid.

"I'm not expecting you to understand. You're a student and soon a sophomores, life holds different demands.

"Still one day, When your life is Temasek Polytechnic as a fashion designer, and activities there, You'll realize why I made this choice.

Talk to me, or reply me uhms? or okay? Do you have a voice?"

I hung up/

I would if I hadn't hung up so quick to comfort myself,

I was feeling quite sick. So then this is it, this is the end.

What more can I say then? "I'll miss you my ex best friend."

-Muhd Arrayan Wisnu. -

PLEASEEE.

2009-10-25T06:49:00.000-07:00

http://www.female50gp.com/2009/vote.php

Kindly vote for Hidayat Cosnan, three times the max!
Thanks people.

This wasnt a prank okay, i gurantee.

TGF

2009-10-22T03:54:00.001-07:00

Rose is not there to accompany to everywhere. ;(
She's on camp and hoping her having fun & takecaaaaaaaare!

LOT OF LUVS

NS CAME IN A WRONG TIMING!

2009-10-21T09:46:00.000-07:00

December gonna be the boring month for me, probably!
Ahmad gone for serving his national service.
Left a loneliness and unfunny world w/o him.
As well as Kyrul.
Recently friend but did a mistake to him. I'm truly sorry for the past.
& he's the guy who called me belo, people. :(
Still funny. And wanting to send me to my atok's cemetery but that's doesn't happened till now. We've been planning for days and nothing seems to be done.
But thanks to show that you're willing to send me.
Takecare & have fun bonding, laughter and botakness! :)

F, GF, CGF, BGF, TGF/

2009-10-11T05:52:00.000-07:00

Friends divided into different kind of group.

Firstly, I had five friends. Asyiqin, Syahirah, Afizah, Rosmiati & Roselynna.

We used to clack and talk crap. What we always think of is just to laugh.

For the sake, we stab and gossip.

Secondly, I had four girlfriends. Syahirah, Afizah, Rosmiati & Roselynna.

We always share food, drink, lil cutie stuff and happiness.

We complaint and compliment each other. We dance together as a group called fabcity, ladies in town then now, vainpot.

Then, I had three close girlfriends. Afizah, Rosmiati & Roselynna.

We shops together. We wore heels for the first time on Raya and complaint of hurt.

We eyeing on guys features and complexion. We HI-5 when we totally agrees of something.

Lastly, I had two best girlfriends. Rosmiati & Roselynna.

We face and feel up and down together. We give attention. Be patron and supporters.

We laugh and teased. We are the negative and positive thinker. We argue and smile again, beat and comfort.

However, I had only one truly girlfriend. Roselynna.

Why? It is because we share hearts and souls together. That’s what I think, is important.

Like what Rose says, forever best friend wont ever happened, I agree.

However, we go with the flow w/o thinking of how long it last but what it contains. :)

(Anyway people, im not choosing friends. But this is my opinion and shows how friend can last till truly girlfriends. My girlfriends had never change when it starts with a number five. But c'mon people, look what happened now? feels disappointed but what to do, this is their life. Ain't mine.) Peace!

what a day.

2009-10-11T03:52:00.000-07:00

To movie.
Wedding ceremony.

Friend's open houses.

Raya with kawan.

Summarised of the pictures above.
Picture for Raya are all upload already at FACEBOOK . Only with friends.
Cause i managed t find one memory disc. Nevermind, better than nothing -_-
Okay, today is Sunday. I had my saturday filled w open houses and yea, till late night.
Then had a movie w siblings. Im not sure w the tittle but the 3D movie, .... meatball?
Had dinner at coffee cafe and i ate pasta w lobster?
Okay, and today followed my mum t paya lebar for attending cousin wedding ceremony?
just came back, thought of going t aunt house but idk if it confirm.

Tomorrow i had no plan but thought of going IMM t purchase camera's charger. but see hows thing going on.
Tuesday had remedial for O's subject and wednesday - sunday, i had my day at Malaysia and Indo.
Come back and had to focus on three more papers and Fashion show, again, back to Malaysia. -_-

why? msn says so.

2009-10-09T04:04:00.000-07:00

why? :(

i hope i get the full detail from you. Thanks for the two years.
Somehow i find it wasted. But sometimes, i thought im the luckiest lady here.
Now, the rope tangled together and went down together that made me finally feels restless.
I had to face it. Thanks for the trouble you made. Im agree, im no longer called even a friend to you.
Hope, you and your life feels better w/o me. and the third person that w you for a week long now.
and now, the reason of why, because why did you changed?
A totally big messed changes in YOU!

whutever post.

2009-10-08T05:36:00.001-07:00

Hari Raya's photo not updated at all for now, i dont know where's the memory disc and yeah, therefore, unable t store it.
Blog w/o photo quite bored. and Plain bored.
Nevermind, not gonna upload it any sooner.

Nlevel just ended today and prepare for Olevel in oct&nov.
Math,MT&Business.
Hope my result didnt flung and hope it improved, instead.
I really wanna enter Poly that obviously i needa t enter sec 5. I dont wanna ITE life, please.
It brings me feel like slaughtering myself!

short&boring

2009-09-29T08:12:00.000-07:00

Feeling exhausted, fainting & tired.

People, I hate what they used to call girlfriend!
They intends to bitch behind our back, yea ROSE?
Want to bitch, better be it in front of my face la. Talk crap for what? i cant hear it, BABI!

All that were booshit and & the matter of shitszxszxsz!
So, what's up w Normal Academic (N/A) cannot be EX-CO!
ea, fucker, if you think you're from express and good enough t be EX-CO, i guaranteed section head teacher wont get the N/A to do the job as EX-CO, fuck!
Brainless SC! I hate you girls la, extremely pathetic and heartless people.
Anw, tell you what. It shows that you, express girl is sucha a fucking loser not to get any of the EX-CO position. Added that still can criticized the N/A of getting it. WTFUCK!
Eventhou you don't criticize me but you did it at my girlfriend. A real GF that i can rely on.

Hey fake girlfriends, next time feel daring t bitch me in front. And see the UMI BITCH, okay.

Care Shit.

2009-09-23T07:15:00.000-07:00

hello muslims!
Selamat Hari Raya 2009.

My celebration was held at Malaysia for 1st - 3rd day of Raya.
Wasn't that fun, afterall. Hellya, it suckass.
All were unplanned and rush for time. End up, we're tired setting up than meeting them.
That's all, for Raya. Picture will upload once the digital is with me.

Love was nice&pleasant. But we hold it with full of breakings and hurtings. & then, we blame the love is blind when th person him/herself is blind, instead.
I get hurt of neither loving nor admiring. I'm sick, & i intend to let myself laid back and rest.
But that wasn't work, the love get me troubled and get me unrest. & i went speechless.
The conflict keeps burning out high and more, with bigger flame. why love? or, why people?
Cant i just dont bother about this and let you have the fun instead? I gave you large spaces to let myself out of your way. Why still, you get me into trouble and stuff?
If you think, you wanna bitch behind me is good for you, then do it. But hey, why can't you tell me i'm bitch right infront of my face? Come and bitch me out if you think you can, right infront of my face. I'm prepared to face it.
Just open your fucking mouth and talk things out. & you think, i hell care my changes that made you feels bad? If you think i care, So what makes you think im telling you nothing when i said you've changed when you're w that fucking big-mama-slutish-fuckity-girl?
Do i have rights or piority to speak out those? Or don't i have it? So, if you cant accept my talks, might as well forget about bitching me neither back nor front. Because i wont hesistate to walk up infront of you to speak out.
You may think, im a lady-like? soft-hearted? give-in? But i have my twin to oppose the manner in a opposite way.
Sorry, you cant get me follow the flow as what you want.

Oh Boy, Should I Smile Because You're My Friend
Or Cry Because Thats All We'll Ever Be?

URGH!

2009-09-14T01:28:00.000-07:00

WHATEVER LA TYPICAL GIRL.
I understand, you'll feel lonely& gonna- die - soon w/o guys in your phone book to contact and stalk the guys!

You know what, You're such a big ego. & Slut.
Fuck man, you're a big loser. You showed me the 8th time now.
I never believe you've changed, and you're never be close w me again.
Stop dreaming to snatch it away the next time round, and as far as you know, i have way much better people. YOU WANT? come and collect 10 slap from me, first.
OMG, i cant imagine living w this type of typical Malay who actually greedy for men!
I mean, really you know. You're attached, and again you're attached t someone else?
I mean, if you really like/love that person just make a break confession. After all, just face what you have t face, BITCH~
When guy X likes you, you play his heart and threw him away because you contacted with many other typical guys. And then, when none contacted you, and many girls likes guy X, you intend t enter his life and trying luck t be with him. And when guy X chose you, you're are now getting on dating w other guySSS!
And claimed yourself singleeeee? FUCK dot dot dot...

I don't have anything to speak and say. And I'm frustrated.
(Aku yang panas sioooooooool, batal puase hah!)

Kim Seng CC

2009-09-13T05:29:00.000-07:00

Had fun with them and juniors. But a Lil pissed off of their slowness and blueness :)
However, we had alot of fun being closure. Hope before next year, we had our dance outing with madam Elyani.

Dancers, perform the vvv extremely the best on Friday eve. We go, ladiesssss!
We have numerous compliment, not enough! We prove them more than just a compliment! :)
And dont forgot, 5th October. The last shot! :)

Break fast, S&S.

2009-09-12T08:04:00.000-07:00

S&S&Breakfast.

2009-09-10T06:45:00.000-07:00

HELLO!

090909, had a Malay outing. Dinnie, Ahmad, Irfan, Haikal, Hamzah, Alwee, Joshua, Danial, Nicholas, Firuz, Atiqah, Afizah, Nuri & ME!
We have break fast together and S.
S wasn't that fun like last time. And had S together w S, awesomeeee!
Idk, but we had alot of cun. Just that splenetic-ally, GFs not there. I mean all GFs didnt turn up!
OHNO. But there's people entertained me eventho its different! ;(
Okay, wasnt spent much dollar & yea, i homed fast at 11. URGH.
Something on w other people.

Picture will be up soon!

im still fine

2009-09-08T06:50:00.000-07:00

give thousands of applause to Umi!

saddened.

2009-09-08T02:39:00.000-07:00

Okay, I have a crush like everyone do. But we're difference as much as like a moon w a sun.
This time, i feels different like i was a victim. I've got all the symptoms of a girl with a broken heart but no matter what, you'll never get t see me crying over you.
I never care not t be w you but hope can see you. I know next to you is not where i belong
& it's a little late for explanations. There isn't anything that you can do for the moment with my eyes hurt, hands shiver.
I don't be bother t continue staying when that's wasn't the place where i fit as nobody’s talking, because talking just turns into screaming. And now yes I’m yelling over her, she yelling over me.
It sounds like a F but I'm gonna do nothing. Sit and view the drama-mama play role infront of me.
I don't mind of who he chose but please, i hope i showed you hopeless. As i don't put any hope getting you but effort. Not to worry, my effort doesn't count anymore. As it gonna be deceleration. Never meant to let it get so personal.

I'm sorry, but I'm just going this far. I told you, I'm gonna continue but things wasn't right. And now, i realized, i had a lot of things and stuff to do other than putting effort which obviously shows someone I'm competing. That's wasn't my motive, i know you know, but people thinks the other way. As a understanding Umi, i had enough. As I'm gonna locked that feelings but not gonna throw it away far deep into the sea.
:) I'm still smiling, hope you guys do. And please, respect my decision as well as for myself. I hope i didn't hear this unhappiness around. Because this was my decision, not her asking me to do it. I'm playing safe for everyone t get into circle of friendships and dancers.
For now, let's stop here because it's ain't gonna change me.
Update you here, anything here will be the place to whom it may concern and know every single thing/

Emo already!

2009-09-08T02:15:00.000-07:00

OMG!

Im emo already, i hate cambrigde school. Ohman.
I studied the whole loads of the Sri Lanka & Northern Ireland w Bonding, like almost front and back pages notes okay.
I even wrote it t fresh about the topic, Joanna and others my witness.
As well as Joanna & Affidah were disappointed. I mean, it's really unexpected ea.
Bonding wasnt an old chapter to actually tested it out, mannnz!
For Sri Lanka and Northern Ireland, i dont mind if it doesnt tested out because it's vvv old chapter.
But whats w BONDING, CAMBRIGDE SETTER? pheeeew.
Okay, but its really disappointed of none coming out from what i knowledgable of laaaa!
URGH, pissed. Emo already. Bye!

Anw, had English tomorrow and breaking fast w malays + Mr Hazlan? idk.
Please confirm by today guysss, i had t plan for things on Saturday w GFs.
* Rosey, A's coming on S. *

yummm

2009-09-06T01:05:00.000-07:00

MAKING SAUSAGE DOUGHNUT! :))
for break fast today.

?

2009-09-03T08:33:00.001-07:00

CONTINUE/FULLSTOP?

:)):((

2009-09-03T03:45:00.000-07:00

hello!

Okay, I'm hungry now, i really do! Just like less than half an hour more. ENDURE!
Okay realizing, Prelim had past, and now National Exam approaching. I mean, it's really close than just around the corner. OHMY!
Just like less than a week. On Monday people!
I'm giving up for Humanities, but not the rest. Hopefully, my name will be on the list for next year sec 5's class.

BECAUSE...
1. I wanna go Temasek Poly and have my Apparel Design course.
2. Its unbearable to leave the GFs.
3. Gonna feel the heat of taking O level w the GFs
4. To get the GFs study together for O level.
5. Someone dot dot dot.